Last week Saturday after dinner I wanted to reapply my lipstick. I had two lipsticks from the same brand but in different colour. I found one and took it out of my purse. I needed to check whether I had the good one in my hand. The room was poorly-lit, so I could not read the colour name on the back of the case. I held it farther from my eyes, then I could read it well. Upon realizing this I thought hmmmm….I have never had to do this before.
The following day I went drinking coffee with husband and the in-laws during which my sister in law mentioned she saw me holding the lipstick farther from my eyes the night before. Her husband suggested me trying on his reading glasses. I put them on and wow! I could see the text on my phone clearly. What a revelation! I suddenly realized, this is another phase of the aging process.
I have always been proud of my (then) good eyes. 20 years-ish ago I went to an optician for a test. My eyes were good. I intended to donate them when I am gone. A couple of years ago, I told my colleague that some texts on the screen were blur to me. The following day she dragged me to an optician for a test. I did that and was told that I might need to wear glasses a couple of years later.
That couple of years later is now. Last Monday I had my eyes tested and I need to wear reading glasses due to presbyopia. My eyes are aging, resulting in worsening condition to focus clearly on close objects. It is a natural part of the aging process. As I am 46 years old now, so it is normal. Despite that I have been positive about getting old, I have embraced my grey shade hair, this knowledge is quite confronting. At the same time I find it hilarious. This physical decay is inevitable.
So here I am, writing this post with my reading glasses on, trying to send the message that aging process is not something you are able to avoid. Some things and conditions are to delay but for how long? Other things, when they come, they are there. Me, as I have stated a couple of times here, I just want to grow old graciously and this is a work in progress for me.